So Ji Sub feat SaetByul - "18 years"
English Translation by iseuli

The suffocating repetition of daily life
Inside the dark room called TV
I wanted to escape for just a moment
Is that so greedy of me? Will it come true?

For 18 years, I lived on acting
For 18 years, I lived wearing a mask
For 18 years, I’ve been confused between fiction and reality
When I look in the mirror I ask, Who are you, huh?
Hip-hop that began with Deux

The job that I got dragged into by chance are paychecks for the sake of life?
I’m like a bottomless empty glass
I can’t help my bitter smile
Even when I look so flashy

Like the days of childhood simply splitting the currents of the river
I want to feel refreshed
So tired of this suffocating daily life
Inside the square box, I’m gift wrapped inside
I want to fly out into the world but I’m struggling in place like a fish out of water

It’s like I’m a criminal living my life with my head bowed
Every day, I want to look up into the sky
This suffocating feeling
Now, my situation is different because I’m together with MisA
My loneliness simply got deeper
It’s really too much to even breathe

My breath is filled from all the hot attention and interest
Even if I’m tired, the pain lasts for just a moment yeah
(Everyone is waiting for me)
Oh, even if I’m tired and it’s so hard to breathe
Oh, I want to find myself

For 18 years they want nothing but my smile
For 18 years my heart is always secretly crying
For 18 years I’m a clown that has sold my soul
Before I could realize, I’ve become gradually so tired

"A movie is a movie," my eyes opened to movies
But the attention from the world was too much for me
Even if I approach with a friendly heart, no matter how cool or nice
If I don’t talk, I become the emotionless cold bastard actor
Listening to only what they want
Seeing only want they want.
Asking for only what they want

If not, they simply point coldly at me and leave
What you want isn’t me, it’s a fun gossip
Keep living with your eyes closed, ears covered
You’ve always lived that way anyway
I cannot inflict even a tiny bit of pain onto others instead
I take this pain and let it sink into my skin turning it to a tattoo, swallowing all this pain with all my body.
Pretending to be cool, pretending to be great, pretending like that
I don’t want to anymore. I want to find my real self

My breath is filled from all the hot attention and interest
Even if I'm tired, the pain lasts for just a moment yeah
(Everyone is waiting for me)
Oh, even if I’m tired and it’s so hard to breathe
Oh, I want to find myself

The suffocating repetition of daily life
Inside the dark room called TV
I wanted to escape for just a moment
Is that so greedy of me? Will it come true?

My breath is filled from all the hot attention and interest
Even if I’m tired, the pain lasts for just a moment yeah
(Everyone is waiting for me)
Oh, even if I’m tired and it’s so hard to breathe
Oh, I want to find myself